Saturday, January 21, 2012

Kaam bada ya Naam?

All your life you are spoon-fed one single message: You are destined for great things. For that, you toil hard. Study as much as possible. Play as many sports as possible. Learn as many musical instruments as possible. You do everything that would make you look good on paper. You get into the top institutes of your chosen profession. You end up among the toppers there too. And you are on the cusp of getting placed in a great organization as well. Life's pretty good, eh?

Had that been the complete story, had that been all that there is to life, I would not have been writing this post! Obviously, there is a but.

Let's talk for a moment about how one of these trophy kids* decides which companies to target in the campus placements.

Almost all campuses have a day basis. Stripping it of all terminologies, it usually means that companies come to campus in the decreasing order of their pay scales. Now imagine the thought process of our kid. And imagine the environment within the campus. Almost everyone is targeting these highest paying jobs. Why? Is it just the money?

Probably not. I feel something at least as important as the money is the prestige value. A person who is expected to crack a first day offer (and by expected I mean good grades and a good pedigree) will be distraught if he doesn't, not because he won't get the monies, but because there is loss of face within the peer group. So the kid gives it all to get into one of those firms, usually not caring whether he is interested in that job at all.

The key word here is usually. Most of the times, students convince themselves that it is indeed their ambition to get into consulting or finance. They believe in it precisely because they want to (or even have to) believe in it. Else how would they justify their getting into these firms? Few like saying it is just for the money. And even fewer will admit that it is the social status attached to the job that attracts them. Edit: Not that there is anything wrong with it. The only question to ask is are you being completely honest with yourself?

And there are a few who passionately believe that this chosen stream is really their calling. Nothing better than that, is there?

But every so often, one or two of these students will question this mindset. They will want to explore other opportunities. Those which will not pay as much and definitely are not as highly regarded by this peer group.  What goes on, then, in the mid of such guys? How do they decide what to do? How do they resist the lure of money & respect and try something which might give them more satisfaction. And they don't even know whether it will give them satisfaction? Should the institute help such people out? Should the peer group be more understanding? Are our placement systems completely apathetic to the problems of such people?

How does this person decide ki Kaam bada ya naam? I will try and answer that in the next post.

Edit: Writing the next part of the post is turning out to be a bother.. and was keeping me from putting up other stuff. Putting it off till when the mood strikes me!

Friday, January 20, 2012

A Nice Pair

While I had heard the song, Emptiness (Tune mere jaana) quite a long back, I was unaware of the existence of the female version (Maine Mere Jaana), which is just as good..! Posting both.

Tune Mere Jaana
- Rohan Rathore





Ho love of mine..
with a song and a wine..
You’re harsh and divine..
like truths and a lie..
but the tale ends not here..
I’ve nothing to fear..
for my love is yell of giving an hold on…

in the bright emptiness..
in the room full of it..
is a cruel mistress ho ho o…
I feel the sunrise..
that nest all hollowness..
or i have the way to go in that cold…

And i feel so lonely yea..
There s a better place from this emptiness..
And i’m so lonely yea..
There s a better place from this emptiness..

yei yei yei ya….
Aa.. aa.. aa…..

Tune mere jaana..
Kabhi nahi jana..
Ishq mera dard mera.. haaye…
Tune mere jaana..
Kabhi nahi jana..
Ishq mera dard mera …

Aashiq teraaa..
Bheed mein khoya rehta hai.
Jaane jahaan a..
Puchho toh itna kehta hai..

And i feel so lonely yea..
There s a better place from this emptiness..
And i’m so lonely yea..





Maine Mere Jaana
- Kaushi Diwakar




Tu Aaja
Tu aaja

Mujhko meri sazaa toh suna jaa
Woh aahein haan woh aansu...
mere hisse ke mujhko rula jaa

sapne tere saare jinme main rehti thi
tukde ban ke mere
Zakhm seene me kar gaye ho

maine mere jaana kyun nahi jaana
ishq tera, dard tera
Maine Mere Jaana Kyun Nahi Jaana

Ishq Tera, Dard Tera
Akeli akeli 
reh gayi bin tere yun akeli
main tadpoo'n ya taarsoo'n
Ya chali aau'n main paas tere
itni tanhai hai zindagi kho gayi

baatein karne saari aa rahi hoon tujhse hi
maine mere jaana ab hai jaana.....
ishq tera dard tera haaye
maine mere jaaana ab hai jaana
ishq tera dard tera

tu jo gaya......
haal ye mera rehta hai
dil ye mera aaa..aaa....
khud se hi tanha rehta hai

and i feel too lonely yeah...
thats a better place than this
Emptiness

and I'm too lonely
thats a better place than this
Emptiness

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Surprised?

I hear a voice,
It is she
The one whom I have been
Waiting to see
She comes up close
And whispers in my ear
Looks at my eyes
Tells me not to shed tears
She cradles my face
And sings me a song
Of sweet memories from
A time long gone
But just as I start
To feel a bit safe
I wake up and find
It was my TV for God's sake!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Foolish Desires

It's New Year and everyone is partying. Celebrating with people whose company they enjoy. The campus is full of happy people drunk in the spirits of friendship. But there are some, who even in the midst of this crowd are feeling all alone. There are some at the back of whose minds is a hope. A foolish hope, maybe. They are waiting for that call, or that message which they know will not come. They are all pining for it. Checking their phones every 10 minutes. Looking at their inboxes, or their chats, or their facebook pages.

But it won't come. He knows that person is out there, chatting with someone else. Right now. How then can this person feel inebriated in this atmosphere? If only wishes could come true. Just this once. And just then, a couple he knows walks in. And he has to wish them a Happy New Year, drinking in his tears, putting on that face he has mastered by now.

Happy New Year folks.